October 2012
2 posts
Sometimes i want to cut and i decide i will, but never move to find the right tool. This only happens when i hear about it and miss the rush. I quit 2 years ago and had 4 relapses… well, moments of weakness which isn’t bad. It’s still a part of me. Addictions WILL always be there. I never think about the people around me because its not up to them to tell me what i should and...
Me
I’m far from any normal girl.
I am sad, depressed, angry, happy, joyful, rambuncious. I am a rebel, a goody to shoes. I can be your best friend or the biggest bitch. I will always put others weights on my shoulders, simply because if they trust me i want to help them, whether its a helping hand or a helping ear. You may be afraid to tell me, for fear of stressing me out, but i will always...
February 2012
1 post
and so the emo girl moved far away and she...
She lived in a beautiful new world with her ex step mother and her husband. but, emo’s world still wasn’t all rainbows and unicorns. Her grandpa died january 6th. she watched him die for 4 days n the hospital after coding. During this time she mainly watched her younger siblings but she still got to go. She watched her mamaw cry for the 1st time when they were alone. It meant something...
March 2011
3 posts
Fuck you... Crazy girl letting her emotions out...
Dear mom,
suck my dick.
Yell yell yell. scream scream scream.
“Can you make dinner?” “Sure I’m only an emotional wreak!” *Cooks dinner for everyone but herself* “there is no meat.”
Oh my fucking bad, omg the world will end for the fat ass cuz I made no meat… awww poor fat ass…. Suck my dick. Make somethin for yourself.
“Oh hey guess what? Your step brother is...
In case you want to know...
Dylan’s funeral is this Saturday. Going up there thursday after school I think. I’ll be back sunday night… Getting a tat in memory of him… god I miss him.
R.I.P Dylan
It seems like just yesterday I was with you in the Livingroom while you growled and protected your “babies” (stuffed animals) and you pushed over anyone who came near…. it seems like just yesterday when you told us the joke about Hannah’s (My sister) cat attacking your face and used the stuffed one to demonstrate. It seems like just yesterday when Hannah and I camped out...
February 2011
4 posts
Burning....
I’m buring everything… Starting with one of the pictures? Or the letters? I haven’t decided yet… and i’m ending it with the picture you gave me that makes me smile… I can’t keep this shit anymore, weather its for a novel or not… I can’t bear looking at it… Fuck you.
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Sigh...
Yeah I miss you so bad it fuckin hurts…. am I really doing much about it? No. I ask you some questions about some medicine and you answer but when I ask how you are do you answer? No. You say you wanted a hug yesterday when we were talking but said you might cry. I ask why… you say your emotional… just because… Guess what? It worries the shit out of me. I was always here...
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January 2011
2 posts
I don't care
K what the fuck is wrong with me?
I don’t care about you I don’t care I don’t care I don’t care. I. Don’t. Fucking. Care.
When I see you I don’t care!!!
Wish I wouldn’t have even texted you cuz I hate hearing that you “care” for me. Do
ya really? Or do you just know it will fuck with me cuz it does!!!!
I hate you. I really do. I...
Waking Up
I tried my best to deal with you. I tried my best to put up with you…
But I didn’t cry until I thought about why I had to hold on this long.
Their was no point to it.
So I wrote you a letter. I poured my heart and soul into that letter.
It was perfect. No flaws. No holes. I was in a numb fog having once again ended our friendship. You finally read it. What was your reply? “It...
December 2010
1 post
???
Why do I feel like… Something is missing?
Why does it hurt?
Why am I about to cry?
Is it because I’m missing?
Is it because everything is not fine?
November 2010
4 posts
Haha..... No
Well…. That was a not fun experience that I will NEVER go threw again. To much pain. Physically and emotionally…. well the missing my friends part at least….
I'd Like To Think...
I’d like to think one day I’ll be happy.
That I won’t always feel this way and
that I’ll fall in love and have a family…
Its only a thought…
Blahhhhhh
All I can do is miss you…
and bang my head on computer desk in
hopes that I don’t text you…
WHICH IS KILLING ME NOT TO WHEN I WANT TOO…
like you would answer any way cuz your asleep……
Fuck this shit!
Fuck this shit and fuck this pain.
Why do I have to miss you this bad?
Why do I want you back this bad?
Cry cry cry.
Cry for the pain.
Cry about how much I miss you.
After all you put me threw,
it takes all I have just not to text you.
Congradulations. Your happy without me.
I’m not happy without you.
I’m not happy when you put me in pain.
I hate this… Fuck this...
October 2010
19 posts
How Could You?
Why did you have to call me?
Why couldn’t you have just let me hate you?
I hate you.
I hate how miserable I am because of you.
You bastard…
Why do you have to always make it hurt worse?
Fuck You
Fuck you.
Fuck what you say.
Fuck what you do.
Its all about you?
HA its about me too.
We were the best of friends.
You were the jelly to my peanut butter (time),
but now its time for me to realize your just an asshole,
I was there threw the pain and the shit you went threw.
I took your crap and your pain too,
and I smiled even though i wanted to just die.
I’m fucking done with...
So your gone now… and I’m not giving it this time… Funny how close the song “Goodbye To You” really describes this… 3 years… I have to get you out of my head though. Rid you from my mind. One day maybe you’ll be just a memory and not a heartache…
I love you
Goodbye CJ.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0dfYBG5ia-E
P.S My mom is giving me...
Sadness :(
So there I was in the bathroom sobbing at what had just happened.
I had emailed him. Basically saying that I was supposed to be his best friend and that he just didn’t treat me like he use to and it hurts me. In the hall before my last class he stood there, all smiles. He told me he had read the email.
“Are you mad?” I ask.
“Mandi, I’ve changed. People change....
Tears
Tears fall from my eyes now,
I can’t take the pain.
If I text you and tell you to call
me you’ll reject me like all those other times.
My heart is screaming out,
begging for the pain to stop,
and you know what I’ll use to shut it up with.
I can picture your face in my mind when you
see the scars,
its like a slap in my face but what am I suppose to do?
...
Where Are You?
You just ignore me… Just ignore me.
I know you have other friends but do I count for anything?
I use to… Or so it seemed. Times have changed C. I’m not
just your school friend like I was in 7th grade.
I thought I was your best friend?
You use to call me all the time and ask me to go with you to
church or the football game or where ever. What happened to those funny
...
Blame It On The Changes Lyrics
I lay down, I cant sleep My mind drums on repeat I stare at the ceiling from my side I reach out you’re right there But you’re lost in the details I wait for the end of a long night You can blame it on the changes I can take it any way it is Just got lost but we both found We need this more than ever Can you take it can we save it Sink our teeth in tear away at it Can we hold out can...
Missing You
Here I sit alone again. I miss you so bad it hurts, why must I always miss you? Why do I have to love you. Why can’t I just get over you? This isn’t fair! I don’t want this. I wish someone would just come along and take you out of my heart forever. I’m so sick of loving you. I just want it to end.
Walking Endlessly Threw The Forest Of My World...
I often wonder… What would it be like, if one day, I told everyone I loved… To just leave, and don’t come back. What would I be like if I got close to no one and nothing? If I stayed away from everything that gives me joy? Would I be fearless? Would I change? Would I not put up with shit? I almost want to be that way. No emo girl to ruin my friends days. No one would worry about...
OMFG
I FUCKING LOVE YOU NICK!
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CrazyEmoGirl: Hi....
Gaara: Hello.
CrazyEmoGirl: ...
CrazyEmoGirl: I just wanted to say, your amazing and I would kill anyone if they messed with you...
Gaara: .....
Gaara: I think I love you.
~CrazyEmoGirl has lapsed into a fangirlcoma
To Alexis Lynch
HAHAHAHAH Oh Alexis…. You make me laugh!
Everytime I'm without you... I miss you like...
I can’t stop thinking, about how you use to be… I if I close my eyes I can see me running down the hall at back to school night last year…
“C!” I yell. I embrace you, and you embrace me in return. “Hi!” you say. I pull out my kitty hat and put it on. You laugh a laugh that I love. One that everytime I hear it I smile or think of and nearly cry because I...
I miss my nerd....
I miss him so much, and its not as easy as one text… I mean I could but it wouldn’t be the old him. The nerd I fell hard for… The one who talks about weird youtube videos and makes me just…. Feel alive. He does now but… Something about the old him just… I wish he was still there. He seems to good to be true now… on top of the part about him being gay… OH SNAP! Yes the emo chick is in love with one...
About The Crazy Emo
Like I said, I’m usually either insanly hyper or depressed most of the time. I am a maaaaajor emo most of the time. Seriously it can be bad, but my mom doesn’t listen when I say BLACK CLOTHING WITH BROKEN HEARTS AND THE UNDEAD THINGS MAKE ME SMILE. I loooove piercings (which my mom is stubborn about so lets hope she never finds out about my nose piercing >;P) and I also love...
“Death Is Peaceful. Easy. Life Is Harder.”
– Twilight. My favorite quote from the books/movies. If You hate it don’t say anything :P 